Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Shaking things up over here

Rakaia River mouth (south side). 25/4/08

I've been thinking about what do I want to do with my 'one and fabulous life' - that's a quote but I can't remember from where. Two weeks ago I declared that I was going to close my business and do something, anything else, other than what I'd been doing.

What's shown up for me is that by making that declaration, I've really felt able to look into what do I want to do? I don't have any answers yet but its been a fascinating journey so far. I've realised that I've been living as though I can't have it all and on Monday (2 days ago), I got that I CAN have it all, whatever 'it all' means for me.

All of a sudden, instead of living in a world of stinginess and not being able to, I've got the whole wide world stretching out in front of me, full of possibilities. What's amazing for me in this new space, is that I'm not terrified of it. Rather, its exciting because truly, anything IS possible.

I have absolutely no idea what shape or form this will take yet but its a lot of fun playing with 'what ifs' and 'I could do....'. So my work continues in the meantime while I play around with and in my life. How cool is that?


Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Shock, horror! Its a new post

I keep making all sorts of promises to myself along the lines of "I'll regularly post on my blog this month" or "Why don't I try to do the blog daily option?" but never do anything. So, once again, I'm just going to put some thoughts down and see where this takes me.

My little sister was just out here for a fortnight (hello E) and I really feel as though we didn't see much of each other. It was a very short visit with a specific focus so I wanted to give her the space to do that. Now that she's gone, however, I feel a bit as though a limb is missing. It was so nice to know that she was just down the road (even though it was 1.5 hours down the road) and now she's 24 hours away if you take a direct flight!

I guess what I'm struggling to say is, that while she was here I felt I had tons of time to catch up with her and suddenly she's back on the other side of the world! I can feel a little bit of 'its not fair' creeping in here and that's not what I mean. Simply put, its great when she's here on my side of the world!

I miss you E & T. Will talk soon.